The beginning of me
Lonely and depressed. I had enough of this self pity party, so I went on a discovery to find myself, my truth and my higher self. I had no purpose or identity, I felt like I was just constantly in survival. My whole life was painted picture of pain, shame and guilt. My lack of self worth was tearing me apart and knowing that I kept pushing my own self to the side was damaging me even more. I didn't want this. I despised this version of me.
Pregnant, with a body full of trauma, I knew I didn’t want to hand my daughter the same childhood I grew up with. So I decided to heal me. In the pursuit of finding who I truly am, I stumbled across my passions.
“My pain, once my enemy, became my greatest teacher.”
What I once questioned - ‘Why me? Why did I have to go through this?’ Has now become a question of self-liberation. “Maybe I went through what I did to feel my freedom, find my purpose, and create the beginning of me.”
My bed, books, coffee and writing. Oh. how I really adore you.
So, who am I?
You’re probably wondering who I am. My name’s Tania — I’m a wife, mother, and homemaker. I believe in the unknown, and that we’re guided to seek our own truth. If you’re someone who’s deeply sensitive to what you’ve been through, then welcome to This is Raw and Real.
I’d describe myself as a deeply passionate person with very big emotions. I cry, I mess up, I get angry sometimes — and I love. I really love. Defo a coffee addict, postpartum helped me love being in bed again and I enjoy wearing inexpensive nightwear.
Personal development books, meditation, and taking risks, all while writing down my thoughts. Has really made me fall in love with myself and life. Creating this blog is all about my own self expression, how I think and feel.
My hope is that this space helps you understand that you’re not alone, and that every experience - no matter how painful - shapes, moulds and helps us grow in unique ways. Each story, each struggle, can guide us toward the higher version of ourselves.
I hope my blog will inspire you, heal you, and remind you that your story matters - that it’s part of becoming the fullest version of you.
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Something about me that is not perfect - I love to write because I can get everything out of my head. However, I'm so terrible at writing but I find it really therapeutic and I just find words to hold emotional weight.
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This is my Memoir, a place of expression and artistic wonderworld. Filled with timeless words and imagination.
As you read my poetic work, I pray you envision it and feel it.